It’s a bit weird. I’m definitely ill. I don’t know what got into me but when I was far away from the city and near your place (although you were islands away), I missed you. I think it’s the usually i-haven’t-seen-you-in-a-long-time-so-i-kinda-miss-you-a-lot kind of missing someone. That doesn’t usually happen to me, though. I’m not trying to make you fall in love with me here. But somehow, I do. Because I’m not sure if I’m feeling the same way, too. I don’t want that to happen. I don’t know. I just want you to be there if ever I trip down and fall. I kept thinking about you and the things that we would actually do if we turn out to be more than friends. Hold hands while walking? Cuddle during a long road trip? Eat yogurt? Visit teas shops? Bake a cupcake? Do extreme dares on your birthday? Was it the cool weather that got my mind thinking about those? I’m not sure. And now, you act as if I don’t exist anymore. How should I react to that? Honestly, I’m not fine. And I hope you can see that and start chatting with me again. Maybe I feel challenged whenever you are like this. But when you’re the other way around, I feel like not replying to you at all. What the hell’s wrong with me? This is what I hate. A  love story that starts of as friends. Then the guy likes me but I don’t like him. Then when I already like him, he’s out liking another girl. I guess the best love story for me would start with a guy I hate, who hates me back, then miraculously fate got us together and TOGETHER, we fall for each other. So there wouldn’t be any chasing. But that’s not happening here. I guess I’ll have to wait then. Going back to you, I’m not sure if I want you YOU, or if I just want the feeling of having someone special. I don’t want to use you. So I guess, this then, is better. Best friends. Who aren’t even talking. Is this even legit?